the smell of leather.
the clean dashboard.
the amazing view.

it all adds up...

oh well some photos from recent outings...

the time has come to bid goodbye to my most trusted partner, lover, girlfriend, wife, buddy and lifesaver..

I've not been the best of masters but i've given you all within my reach. You got me high, achieve speeds i've not felt else where. You gave me the due protection when i was careless and soon, you will be gone.

I drove the majority of the 130000KM and it sure was great times. I'm sorry if i made you work beyond your physical capabilities, i was always an adrenaline junkie, and you were my tool, my path to fulfilling my needs. you stayed strong when i needed you to. you performed like a champ when i wanted you too.

The challenges and battle scars you've endured will remain with me till the end of time..

I now bid you farewell my trusted buddy, Mitsubishi Lancer 1.6 GLX.. SFN6285K...

Our paths crossed and achievements made. May the good road ahead bring less stress to your aging soul, body and mind.

this worst.... omfg..

here's a freaking funny, cheap attempt at copying the King of Pop

need a holiday... langkawi? or redang? or perhentian?

Lets seeeee....

I'm stronger. i'm happier..

Thank you. And goodbye.

your perspective of life is not the same as mine.

mine's the one where friends call each other out when they are happy AND sad..

Your's? Actually to be honest... I really dont know who you are. Maybe that's why we have distant from the idealistic equation of 10 years of friendship.

I guess I'm evolving to become someone who isnt worthy of your happy times. Maybe the other new beings have fit into the equation better than i have and will. I chose to delete the contacts, I chose to block you guys. Reason being: You dont need me. Even if i needed you.. You guys probably dont have the time for me anyway. And actually i did need you guys. I needed to talk. I needed to share my thoughts. And come to think of it... I've never done so. Maybe I shouldnt at all. The thought that you guys can actually be friends/ buddies... it's fading.... more specifically, FADED...

Master the method of Solitude. Life will be an island from then on.

My phone number is no more 24/7 for anyone.

When the world goes down on you. Believe in yourself. No one else will be there for you like yourself.

If the road gets dusty. Believe in yourself. No one else will come to your aid.

When you need somebody. Talk to the mirror. No one else will listen.( unless of cause you wear a skirt and have some 'sisters'.)

Brothers in my life? Ya... 2, Adrian Quek, Edwin Quek.
Buddies in my life? Ya... 5, Pat, Aishii, JoJo, Cal, Lala
Family? Ya... 2, Mum and Dad

Are these enough? No...

With God... Hell YeaH!

You'll never walk alone? BULL SHIT.

Life is a bed of Roses... but all i feel are the thorns.

Passion burns the soul and fuels the mind.

....

i'm nothing more than nothing..
I'm nt worth anything to you.
Just another passerby, just another resource at ur disposal i guess...

I've decided... I gt nothing to do with u, u and u... Leave me alone and go away...

i see your halo halo halo...

actually all i see is double vision and the thirst to whoop ass on the team's project... not the best group dynamics... but not the worst...

Beyonce- Halo

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
Halo, halo

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

exams are over... void in the time filled with nothing... spending time with my buds... wishing the world wud spin a tad faster so that attachment comes soon... hmmm

I've learnt something important about my personal character.

I want to feel important.

Unfortunately, for most cases, i tend to overdo things. and ultimately, destroying things. I'm also starting to believe that since i'm unable to be important in everything, i will be important in my own life. Doing the things that are important to me, meaningful to me.

As people grow out into the different societies, different environments, different mentalities are formed, nurtured. As such, their perspctive changes from the beginning in which we've known them. The ultimatium to this would be to adapt, or to drop and leave.

To the benefit of most cases, people try to adapt. Unfortunately to most cases, i dont adapt, and that is a problem with me. Everything has to be about me. To think i make the effort to do things for people. maybe it's time to back off. take a break, have a seat in the passenger seat... Maybe..

Maybe not.. Not because i'm overly egoistic, because no one else will drive. =)

Life has evolved for me over the period of my army life to my life in university. My views remained relatively unchanged. but the people within the trusted circle are getting smaller. The people i can rely on to help me out when i'm in need is getting close to none... (not none since Aishii, Cal and a few more are still around) ...


Will you take me as i am?
For my flaws?
For my imperfections?




Lecrae- take me as i am
[Talking]
Christ through faith
I talked to a cat the other day
And he was like;
"Man I really wanna come to Christ
But I gotta clean my life up first, get my sins together"
I told em, I used to think that way too
I thought I had to change myself before I could come to Christ
But Christ changed me
Let me tell you my story, it starts like this

[Verse One]
It's 5:46 in the mornin', tossin' and turnin'
Chest burnin', sermons in my head keep reocurrin'
Havin' visions in my head of a kid
Cryin' at the feet of the Father, for all the wrong things that he did
Now I'm sweatin' in my sheets can't sleep
My mind keeps tellin' me I'm six feet deep
Don't remind me, even though I'm still alive I can't tell
The way I'm living my life I feel I'm going to hell
God they telling me I should accept you
That you had to leave the world, cause the world left you
Reason I can't change, like a mystery to me
So I make believe there really is a heaven for a G
Even though they say you loved the world so much, you shed ya blood
God I feel I'm too messed up for love
They tell me come as I am but I smell like smoke
My whole lifes full of sin cause it's all I know
The bible told me that you died for my sins
If I believe in Christ, it'll save me from the end
But I'm scared to ask you, to save me my heart
So evil, I got thoughts, that's full of hatred hurtin' people
I thought at first I had to clean up my life
Now I'm hearin' I just need to cling to the light
I'm ready to do it, but Lord I pray you understand
My life is a mess, will you take me as I am

[Chorus]
Will you take me as I am
I know the way I'm living is wrong
But I can't change on my own, trying to make it alone
I wonder, how could you love me when my life so ugly
But you came down and died for me

Will you take me as I am
I know the way I'm living is wrong
But I can't change on my own, trying to make it alone
I wonder, how could you love me when my life so ugly
But you came down and died for me
Will you take me as I am

[Verse Two]
I'm sick and tired of trying to me the man, my daddy never taught me to be
I'm grown up now, life ain't what I thought it would be
I made many mistakes in my past I can't fix
Now I'm staring at this crusifix tatted on my wrist
Is it true what they telling me, am I just crazy
Did ya bleed on the cross, for my sins to save me
But why would ya die for me
My whole life I've been working for Satan, while He fed lies to me
And now I'm hearing too much, trying to get a true touch
Of a love that can change me, I'm all screwed up
Figure Hell is what I deserve
But your word says we all fall short so I guess we all outta burn
Teach me I wanna learn
How you could save a wretch like me, before death says it's my turn
I think I finally understand
No matter my past, you'll still take me as I am

[Chorus]

[Verse Three]
My father had a few last words to give
I be telling people the reason to live
The reason to die, united with the King in the sky
This life is passing us by, I got no reason to lie
You'll never give the world enough, they'll hunger for more
They figure there ways are nuthin to the wonderous lord
More security than the man that left you
More love than the moms who kept you
He'll always accept you
Be everything your supposed to
Let Christ rule ya heart, mind, body and soul cause He chose you
And if the world don't know you
It don't matter you're Gods child and he'll never disown you
Ya purpose on earth is far from worthless
That's why ya glorified like ya life's been purchased
And it don't matter if the world don't seen us
We still mean the world to Jesus

[Chorus]

[Talking]
Yeah, we're saved by grace through faith
It's not works
Ain't nuthin you can do, ain't nuthin I can do
That could get us this grace salavation that we got man
It's only Christ
So if you feel like you gotta clean yourself up
Before you can come to Him
Forget it
Just come to Him
He'll take you as you are, and he'll change YOU
From the inside, out